so uh this is the only place i can actually type what the fuck i want to because TOO MANY PEOPLE I FUCKING KNOW FOLLOW ME ON STUPID SOCIAL NETOWRKING SITES. this is a breakdown, a mental breakdown, a physical breakdown, a nervous breakdown. ARE YOU FUCKING STUPID, BECAUSE I LOVE YOU AND ONLY WANT YOU all day every day all of you or FUCKING NONE OF YOU. but i can’t have you and its not fucking fair because i’ve waited for this for fucking EVER and i just want to make you happy and to cry with you and laugh with you and i’ms o fucking angry that you’ve decided to pass up this FUCKING CHANCE all becuase of that. becuase of this i will be overdosing on my sleeping meds and resorting back to old habits, old cycles, and old mentalities just to get me by for a while until I CAN GAIN MY MOTHERFUCKNG SANITY BACK.

bye

I

often reflect back upon my day, only to realize my happiness is but a facade. i don’t even feel real